Excruciating Agony: A Personal Struggle Against the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome
It began on a gloomy Monday morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense pain erupted behind my one eye. It was followed by rapid shocks, like electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the discomfort eased and then came back with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.
The attacks appeared frequently that autumn, and once more in spring, soon forming an annual cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-blown pain in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.
This condition often start with intense pain around one eye that persists up to three hours.
About 1 in 1000 people are affected by the condition, and men are more frequently affected. Attacks typically start with sudden, excruciating agony around one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal cycles; others have chronic attacks, characterized by the absence of long pain-free periods.
What connects patients is the severity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. Another discovered 64% of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the figure dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.
Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, similar to many causes, made things more intense. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.
Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.
Nevertheless, the inability to organize daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.
Headaches have been documented across history. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They attributed the disease to an evil entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.
Ancient medical records suggest bizarre remedies for what some experts would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a separate condition, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.
It was a European doctor who provided the first detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and disappearing daily at specific hours”.
The disorder were only formally recognised by global headache societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major artery which delivers blood to the brain. Leading specialists in treating the condition note this.
In the late 1990s, scientists published the results of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, published in a major medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.
In spite of such advances, identification remains slow. One man's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.
Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary head pain disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed history is essential: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.
Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dentists misunderstood her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a calm advisor guided me through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack eased.
National guidance on management recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of well-known people.
But leading specialists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a more defined clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the cycle determines the treatment.” Brief cycles with occasional attacks are managed with abortive treatment only. Longer or more intense periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.
The national guidelines need updating to reflect a